let’s take a walk

Sidenote: it isn’t easy being a self driven recovering perfectionist type of creative.  The ideas that swirl in my beehive brain paired with the old habits of striving to the point of exhaustion = create a perfect storm of confusion.

Gently, persistently, I sense Him tugging gently at my sleeve:

But what about the green pastures? What about still waters? What if I am inviting you to rest? To walk in the cool of the day together, with Me?

Can you let go of your strivings, your concern about the possibility of unmet needs, your desire to be seen, heard & valued?

Do you believe I can meet each of those more comprehensively, deeply & fully than any achievement you could possibly accomplish?

This is the crux of the battle within.  You or Me.  

Who is more capable of meeting the longings of your heart?

My head says: You, Lord. 

But my body says: Only I can meet my needs.  No one else has proven they are willing or able.

But what does Your Spirit say?  What does your Word say? Lord, who do You say I am? Lei, who do you say I Am?

Lord, You are my everything. Without You, I would not be in my right mind.  You are my sanity, my security, my strength, my hope, my first and last love.  Help my unbelief.  Help my body fully believe and let go of the lies that entangle & hold captive.

Help me, Lord.